This was definitely one of the worst weekends, I have never cried so much. The puffy bags I have received over the past few days are just another bonus to how I feel. My boyfriend and I broke up. It was my first relationship and as of right now my last. If my sister Jenny wasn't there for me with no doubt in my mind, it would of been even worse. She ended up pouring us glasses of wine, renting movies, and painting my nails. Jenny vowed to never paint my nails again, I couldn't sit still. Too many thoughts were going through my head, but she still gave me every drop of patience she could manage. When she gave up her Halloween plans and decided to stay home on a Saturday night just for me I cried even more, I couldn't control my emotions. I wasn't sure if it was the bottle of wine I slammed instead of sipped, the chick flick that made me think of relationships, or just the fact that she really would do anything for me.
I feel like I lost the urge to party, even though my friends offered to take me to the club or any place that I wanted to go to. The sad part is the closest party this weekend was almost walking distance, yet I still said no maybe next weekend. For me that's far from normal I was the one known to be always up for a good time, yet this weekend made me feel the exact opposite. After replying "no" all day, my ex-boyfriend text-ed me saying anything from I love you too I want you back. I honestly don't have a clue anymore, there are so many feelings pounding in my heart, but it feels like my head. My migraine could use some pain relievers while I could use the common sense I feel that I am currently lacking.
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